June 29 (Thursday) – World Cup Day 21

These days are sent to test us. Last night was heavy but I don’t feel bad for it, I don’t feel hung-over or necessarily tired out for that matter. Racton on the other hand emails telling me how he is suffering and is still able to taste cheap spirits on his breath. Nice.

Today is hella chock-a-block at work. The month is all but ended and I am still plugging away with only two days remaining within which to still get a fair bit of work finished off. And I still don’t feel well with it, the people at work tell me that they think I may have tonsillitis – unlikely but I’m happy to milk it for what it is worth.

At lunchtime we head out en-mass to the world famous Mike’s Café sat opposite Hugh Grant’s travel bookshop from the Notting Hill movie (which is real life is not next to the school – the fuckers from Hollywood performed an illusion and moved it). Is it a poor show to eat gammon steak in front of Jewish people? Regardless I am bought an amazing slice of chocolate cake for desert. High times.

The day ends well as the Latitude Festival blag comes through and the word on tickets is officially “no problem”. Rejoice!

Despite the good news, by the time I arrive home I am not the happiest person in England. Are Thursdays worse than Mondays? Sometimes to me they are. Friday afternoons are melancholy and Thursdays are pretty damn too close to that for comfort. Thursdays are indeed the new Friday.

Tonight I arrive home, probably late – fucking trains! I’m not happy, I am hot, I am sweaty and there is no food in my cupboards. So this is perhaps not the most choice time for 3G Mobile to be cold calling me. At first when the phone rings I think it is a real person. Obviously its not a friend calling my landline so thoughts move towards my parents calling me at home – is something up? Is either of them ill? Is the dog OK? Instead there is a brief buzz of a call made inhumane and suddenly on the line there is some idiot from some hole in Asia mispronouncing my surname, trying to sell me a new mobile phone contract in 3G’s usual patronising and aggressive manner. What the fuck gives? 3G Mobile spam called me four times last summer, always with a sticky ending and I am registered on rather efficient TPS scheme. These calls never get off to good start when some guy sounding like a stereotype from a racist seventies sitcom goes “is Mr Grar-Ham there?”. As usual I play thick and ignorant until I make the piece of shit say me name correctly with a limited amount of respect. For my amusement I usually string these calls out for as long as possible up until the point where they begin asking for my bank details – how personal, a true violation. Tonight when I begin messing the guy about around the time he begins requesting my bank details he puts me onto his supervisor who begins to condescend me, telling me how I have agreed to a new 3G mobile and that I now need to give over my bank details as if my life depends on it. Considering I have been grunted down the phone for the past five minutes, I really don’t feel I have agreed to anything legally. I get really arsey with this guy who is more than a sheer minion, attempting to razz me with pukka English terms as if to say “see, I am one of yous, guy”. Unfortunately however when he accuses me of wasting their/his time that is like showing a red rag to a bull and out come the expletives – “me waste your time? You’re wasting my fucking time!” which gets coupled with “how fucking dare you call me up” and suddenly I am in rant mode, a rare aggressive me that rarely gets shown/seen in public. I tell him I am registered with TPS and that he really should not be calling. This fact doesn’t appear to impress him at this point so when I begin telling him to “fuck off” Mr Telesalesman Supervisor loses his cool and throws his English manners manual book out of the window and in his little Asian voice he tells ME to “fuck off”. YES! I actually pushed the guy over the edge. That’ll teach him/them to phone me. I really am a total cunt sometimes.

JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
Hi. How are you? Still in Brixton?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
currently
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
did you resolve your shift issues?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
not yet
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
is not to be resolved, its just how it is
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
still enjoying London?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
yes indeedy
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
dont you?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I love it, we went to Walthamstow and greyhound racing on Saturday - it was fantastic!
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
ooh
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
"ooh" - how?

You have just sent a Nudge!

BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
oooh cos it was fun?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
would you not expect it to be?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
no idea
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
have you been up to anything good?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
flat hunting
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
went to nottingham
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
for an exhibition
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
went to an ann summers party in hoxton
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
whereabouts are you flat hunting?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
zone 1+2
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:

JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
North or South?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
dunno. where we find one
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
nice strategy
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i thought so
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
ha ha - just joking

You have just sent a Nudge!

BELLA (Love Your Monkey) just sent you a Nudge!

JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
not in the mood for chatting tonight?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
looking at flats innit
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
which websites are you looking at?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
al sorts
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
find a property and .homesandproperty.co.uk for a start
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
gumtree
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
aim for Islington, it's pretty nice in that area. also if you can snag Kentish Town area, it has all the benefits of Camden without actually being Camden
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
Rotherhithe and that area (Surrey Quays etc) is nice these days
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
and everyone still raves about Putney
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i have preferences already
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
thanks though
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
why the bloody hell would ya wanna live in putney?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
what are your preferences?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
no way, Putney is really up and coming
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
so is sydenham butr its in the bloody middle of nowhere
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
E1/E2. London brige/borough. Angel. Highgate. are a few
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
Angel rules! I was there on Saturday. London Bridge/Borough is awesome but super pricey
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
have you been to Borough Market?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
yes
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
we spant 17quid on veg
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
spent
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
that area's pretty close to Rotherhithe - one stop. which in turn is close to the almighty Millwall!!!! I've got a couple of friends who live in the 'hithe and its great
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
are you at work tomorrow?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
nah, looking at flats. viewings booked
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
that's cool - whereabouts?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
erm..
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
bethnal green
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
topski, you can go see the boxing on Saturday nights - I've always wanted to go
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
or not
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
ha ha - don't knock it 'til you try it
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
any joy with finding a place around Bridge/Borough?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
not looked yet
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
keen on the East then
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
not especially
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
lol
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
did you watch Nathan Barley when it was on?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
nope
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
shame, you remind me of the guy on there from SugaRape. I bet you curled up your nose in some kind of resignation when you wrote/thought "not especially" - lol
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
hahahaha
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
man, I always take that so personally (ha ha)
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
haha
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I think you are the most difficult person in the world to impress (and at certain times, to humour)
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
and of course, it's not your fault
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
have you never thought maybe i like to be difficult
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
or maybe you are just too easily impressed/ ammused
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
definitely
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
secondly, definitely NOT!
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I just don't like to be difficult, it makes life easier
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I used to try to be purposely naive but that sucks
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well maybe what you havent considered is that im only difficult arround you
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
on the contrary (lol) - that is exactly what I think but I just don't know why/can't work that out. I come to the conclusion that you dislike me (ha ha)
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well if i do its not on purpose. i think you just 'rub me up the wrong way' as it were
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
no, I don't it is that
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I don't THINK it is that even
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well since we both fail to find anny conrary reasoning im afraid thats the only option your left with
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
you're being difficult on purpose again
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
you got it
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
but why??????? (ha ha)
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
one theory is that there was somebody in your past and I remind (negatively) remind you of them
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
noone remionds me of you
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
except.. erm.. you
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
that was only one theory
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
it was a lame theory
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
shame guy
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
huh
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I thought you were into Ebonics?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I don't suppose you ever found a copy of Vice magazine for me did you? I won a competition off their website but I'll be fucked if I could find the magazine
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
do what?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
naah
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
dunno where you'd get it.. hang on
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i'll ask my housemate when she gets back
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
cool beans, I thank you
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
have you been watching Big Brother? my friend is going to be on the Russell Brand show as the comedian. good times
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
did you see X-Men 3?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) winks:

Play "Knock"
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i dont do big brother
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
my housemate is sitting next to me watching as we type
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i did see xmen3
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
Lisa owns Big Brother
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
no idea. no interest
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
snob
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
no. i just dont like watching ashit nobodies on shit
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
tv show acting like knobs
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
not just BB. in general.
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
boho
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
inclusive ov all shit nobody tv: BB, Xfactor, Hollyoak. grr
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
boho?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
yeah, most people and things on TV are shite
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
boho = bohemian "I hate TV"
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
there we go then
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
there is a lot of great stuff though
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
has your magazine come out yet?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
nope
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
its the following issue
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
did your friend know where to get Vice?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
gimma a chance. she's not home yet
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
oh, I thought it was the one currently sat next to you
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
in fact i'll have to let you know next time as she is at dance and wont be back till latre
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
nah, her mom#
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
German accents are the BEST!
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
do you remember an eighties pop band called Propaganda? I had to sort out the lady's royalties and she had the hottest accent, it made me blush
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
antoninas isnt that strong actually
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
and felina doesnt have one
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i met this other german girl who works in colchester who has a german accent
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
oh really? cool
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
ever so slightly
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
where does she work in Colchester?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
TVhits
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
for some reason that rings a bell with me
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I think I knew someone that worked there (maybe Sue)
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
its a shitty teen pop magazine
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
ha ha - you totally hate everything tonight
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
not at all
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
bollocks
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
tonight is no diferent
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
you hater you
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
do you know which one i mean though?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I have an idea
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
did you enjoy meeting up the other week?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
erm...
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
partially
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
(sorry for the blunt honesty)
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I would echo those sentiments
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
why only partially for you?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
cos you 'rub me up the wrong way'
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
in what respect?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
and to much dwelling on the past. i live in the now
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I would disagree
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
how were we dwelling on the past?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
escuse me? i know myself better than you know me
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i wasnt. you were
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
how?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
that is SO patronising
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
just saying it as i see it
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
and arrogant also
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
specify pleae
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
please, even (can't type)
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
youre always like 'remember when we..' and whatever
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
what else is there to talk about?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well then dont
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
what did we talk about when first hung out? we didnt have a 'back when' to talk about
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
good point
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I guess there was more interest then
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I tried to talk about contemporary things but you just seemed uninterested and unimpressed
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
you were being "difficult"
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
hehe
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
as ever you clam up
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
only with you
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
im sure if you ask any of my other friends they would describe me as 'freindly' and 'an open book'
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
nah, just stuck up
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
fuck off
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
true
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
nope
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
sorry for the blunt honesty
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
yeah whatever
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
you are clearly deluded about your affect on other peoples moods. THIS is the reason i only partially enjoyed out meeting up
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I was bored but at least putting in effort
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
have some tact
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
im ahppy and cheerful and pleasent untill i talk to you
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
thats sad to hear
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
im not uninterested in what you have to say i just find you obnoxious and dismissiove of other peoples opinions
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
genuinely
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
isnt it better to know that i biyuld up a harsh internal resentment for you. at least if i tell you you can work on it
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I dunno, its not obnoxiousness, just a sense of humour
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
depends what your talkin about
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
the dismissive of other people's opinions is just a result of being on the other side of the coin
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well then learn some fookin tollerance and empathy
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
internal resentment towards me? harsh words
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I don't think I have anything to work out, it is only you I seem to have such an effect on.
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
I have plenty of tolerance and empathy
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
this is interesting though
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well ditto. but sor some reason you are unwilling to accept that you are only person i dont mesh well with
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
it works both ways
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
no no, I fully believe you and accept it but I don't understand it
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
and as you say it was never always the way
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well then i guess we got to know each other
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
whch maybe wasnt a good thing
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
ouch
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
do you really believe that though?
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
if i grate you why do you still wanna talk to me#?
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
you said I grate you
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
well if you think im "patronising, i clam up, just stuck up
and tactless" why still talk tome?

JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
its interesting stuff (and sometimes fun)
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
it can also be excruciating
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
you are a glutton for punishment
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
sometimes
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
its all a learning process though
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
anyway..shall we leave it on that note as i have to go apply for some jobs
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
yeah, I sense I am stressing you out
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
nope
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
not in the least
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
you just bring out the brutal honestly in me. you and one other person
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
surely that is a good thing
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
i'll leave you to guess
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
bye bye
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
who's the other? I can't be arsed to guess
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
bye bye
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
someone else that gartes me
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
grates
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
oh man, you TEASE! lol
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
who is it and I promise to leave you alone to apply for jobs
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
Andrew 'ponytail' comber
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
nice
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
at least I ain't that bad
JGRAM - (NO MSN AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!!) says:
ok, good night, take care
BELLA (Love Your Monkey) says:
gotta go now as housemate is going online